Its as I Fear

To night marks the 5th night in a row that I wake up around 1:00ish a.m. and cant fall back asleep. I think my sheep have all left me and now I try a different "game" to fall asleep. This game consists of me picturing those color by number coloring books but ever number is 1. Then after i see the picture all fractured up like a puzzle with 1's at the center of every piece I then start to color them in with yup you guessed it black. Alas this game has failed me also...

So now I have gotten to where i have to remove my self from the room as to not wake Chrissy from her sleep. She needs to get up early for work. I on the other hand have been looking for a job ever since I got back from GA.

Well if you are wondering why i went to GA it was because my uncle offered me a "well" paying job learning the marble and granite counter top business. Well after me and my wife had made arrangements to leave our apartment(as I would be flying up to GA with out her to start work sooner so we could have more money flowing in) and live with her parents. To be honest I was excited about learning a new trade as I am particularly fond of working with the cabinets that I had been doing most recently, and this felt like the next step up.

So after moving my wife back in with her parents I got on my flight eager to work. I soon landed in GA to find that it is extremely humid and really green but it was pleasant non the less. I met up with my uncle as I was supposed to live with him until the apartment Chrissy and I had talked to up there was available.

I started my work with the stones the next day after I got there. It was wet work (water saws) but it was simple and enjoyable to be creating something. Well after a weeks worth of work I received my paycheck.....
It was not only lower than I had been told i would make but significantly lower. I freaked out and confronted him to which his reply was that I would not be making that much money with him until a year or so had passed which to me and my wife's understanding was not what we had discussed before I flew out there.

So after a long phone call with Chrissy we decided for me to come back and come back fast. I spent that weeks paycheck on a ticket to fly home and now here I am.

I have been looking for a job with anything even fast food and I have my father in law as a witness that no jobs want me. I have tried everything and everything I am on craigslist 4 hours a day, I drive around every other day (gas is an issue) going into places getting apps or checking up on ones turned in.

Christina thinks that I am to conserned about what the family thinks of me and thats why I cant think. I know this sounds weird but the only family that i really care about is my mom and my brother and sister and my inlaws. Well I felt sick to my Stomach today as me and chrissy where in the bed room (double filling apps on differant computers for me) we could hear my inlaws fighting and from the sounds of it, it was because of my joblessness.

I feel that its not a lack of desire or effort but Please god hear my prayers! I am starting school soon just have some tax papers to take care of but other than that I am good to go.

I dunno its 2:01 in the morning and I still cant sleep. Maybe today will be the day I get a job. I can only hope!